Sunday, March 2, 2014

Sunday Story - brave new world

I wrote this on Monday:
So, I'm setting off on a new adventure - a non-romantic adventure. I'm going to try my hand at erotica, in the novel form. I've had this idea kicking around in my head for 5 years but I haven't been able to resolve it. This week, things aligned inside my brain. I'm being brave and making the move to erotica. It may not be permanent, but for this story, Past Lives, it will be.

Past Lives is a story that I've written and rewritten, taken to workshops and revamped, cursed and sworn over. I have about 100 files in this folder with various starts, restarts, scenes, plans, ideas and bits and pieces. I haven't been able to make it work because in my mind, it doesn't have a happy ending. I'm not 100% sure what the ending is (because I don't write if I know the end) all I know is that it will end 'up in the air' in some way - because that's how I see life.

I kept wanting this to be a romance, because it's about love in its deepest, purest form, but I couldn't make it work.

A whole heap of things have been happening in my brain, but on the weekend I read the news article about Rebekah Brooks and the News of the World scandal thing. I was a bit horrified that her marriage and sex life got called into the case, and wondered if that would happen if she was male... but when those thoughts disappeared, I realised, it's another woman, married, but with an affair on the side.

The other week I posted (here) about wanting to write about a woman having a clandestine affair, and what I chicken I was about it.

Well, chicken no more.

Maybe the world is ready for my story. Maybe I can be brave and tell it.

I'm going to write my Past Lives story. I'm going to write it how I envisage it. I'm not going to worry about romance, or happy endings. I'm going to write the book I see in my mind - affairs, sexless marriages, women being bad, men being awful, lots of sex, lots of confusion, actually, who knows what it is because all I've got are a 100 random snippets to pull together or discard!

So, I'm off on the next journey in this writing world. Wish me luck - I think I'm going to need it!

(And just so you know, I'm writing this to be accountable. I've fart-arsed around for a couple of weeks now trying to work out which story to work on next! At least now I have a plan, and it's in writing)

And today it's Saturday, and I'm struggling. I can;t work out how old my heroine is, if she is married or not. Nothing's working!!!!! I have another 3K of probably wasted scene.

But I'll keep trying to make this work...

might just duck off to another half-done manuscript while my brain works on this one.

Bloody hell. Some days this is hard!