Tuesday, November 16, 2010

Gotta Have It

I'm in! My short story has been chosen for an anthology - Gotta Have It: 69 stories of sudden sex edited by Rachel Kramer Bussel. Yippee!!! Published. Or will be, in about March 2011.

Unbelievable.

This is the first thing ever to be selected and printed. I can't wait to see it. It'll probably cost me a fortune buying copies to gloat!!! :-)

Yippeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee

Tuesday, October 26, 2010

WOWOWOWOWOWOWOWO

I'm in a book.... more details to come.... wowowowowowowowo....

Tuesday, October 19, 2010

Comments

Do you ever hear something said that has an immediate crushing effect, so much so that your brain freezes and you are unable to think of a comeback - for days!! The other day it happened to me. My cousin said, "I'm sick of hearing about your slutty stories." I had never spoken about them. I didn't even know he had heard of them (I found out there had been chatter amongst the older generation). And I was not speaking about them at the time of the comment - his mother was. So why direct the comment/anger/antagonism at me? Was it a jealousy thing? Did he want to be able to write freely but felt unable to express himself? I wish I had have been able to converse about it, rather than stand in mute shock and let them all walk away.

Thursday, July 22, 2010

Unexpected

Have you ever had an unexpected lust? I don't know what else to call it. When you are happily being friends and then the world shifts and all you can think of is hot sex? Yesterday they weren't attractive, today something deep and forbidden calls to you? Yesterdays touch on the arm was ignored; todays lights a fire in your soul.

It's disconcerting. It's powerful. Something I want to explore in my latest short story... or shall it be bigger? The power of lust makes me want it to be a huge novel... but lust doesn't always sustain through 300 pages! A shame... lust is so much aching fun.

Tuesday, June 8, 2010

Still in the Hunt

Can you believe it... my online meeting story is still in the hunt for an anthology. I'm smiling like a goof! I still have one I have not heard about. So out of 3 - one rejection and two pending. That's not bad. Well, it could be, but so far it isn't!!

And life has not been so kind lately - not much time to write at all. No time for web page designing either. *sigh* Maybe things will improve!

Thursday, May 27, 2010

One story bites the dust

One of the two stories I submitted to an anthology has been rejected *sigh*

I don't want to be pessimistic but... I have such hopes for the other story and I'm concerned it will follow the same fate. If it does, will I have enough oomph to pick myself up again? I hope so.

I'm thinking I should re-write my failed story and submit it as a novella or a quickie to an e-publisher. It seems to fit that kind of mould. Or that could just be my deluded self telling me it does!

It feels like such a long journey, yet others have taken many years longer. I hope mine is not going to be "many" years more!!! :-)

Friday, April 16, 2010

What do we want in a man?

I had an experience lately which showed me differences in two men I can hardly decide between. One man believed and supported me 100%, the other questioned me, made me face myself and see who I was.

What do you want in a man?

I'm not sure... still :-) You'd think their polar opposite reactions would make me lean one way or the other, wouldn't you? Sometimes I need to check myself and make sure I'm not telling myself porkies (porky pigs = fibs = lies). Other times I want the loyalty of someone who just believes me and believes in me.

Does that make me fickle?

Tuesday, March 23, 2010

Mental Blockages

Do you have mental blockages? Something stopping you from achieving what you'd like to do? I had one... a big one. I didn't recognise that it was a mental blockage. My friend recognised it. After some discussion, he convinced me to see a hypnotist. Why did I go? I have no idea. Probably because it was something I could do - the hypnotist lived close by, I was curious about hypnosis, he asked me to do it and I don't know that he's asked me to do anything like that before. So I went. Wow! Mental blockage... gone! Did I know my life was affected by this blockage? No. Well, not until it was gone. Truly amazing!

I wish you ... friends as good as mine.

Thursday, March 11, 2010

Anthologies

There's not a lot of demand for erotic short stories... but there are antholgies of short stories published. Now that's probably what I should be targeting. So I have started looking and seeing if I can marry up what I've already written with the anthology requirements.

Ah, it's such a long journey to getting published. A few moments of a high, and then vast lengths of unknown where you just have to keep plodding along, hoping you're doing the right thing!

Thursday, February 25, 2010

Fantasies

Are fantasies always your own, or do you develop them when other people tell you theirs?

I seem to develop them from others. You know, start thinking about it, turning it into a scene, a story, something juicier. Put in a couple of nameless, faceless people and the fantasy heats up. My girl is almost always kind of naive and shocked by things, so this kind of steams it up a bit too.

But no matter how much I borrow someone else's fantasy, I do come back to mine, just for me.

Friday, February 12, 2010

Humiliation

Does humiliation turn you on? It's something I can't quite get a handle on. I can't understand the pleasure from it - either giving or receiving. It gets my hackles up. I feel like saying "It's a free world, if you don't like (whatever) then f*^k off."

I can't even write it. And usually I can write anything.

Maybe it's a submissive thing... and I'm not a good submissive. I can try. But sometimes I can be very trying!!!

Monday, February 8, 2010

Miserable weather

The weather at my place is lousy... overcast, wet, wet, overcast, sticky, wet... and did I say wet?

I'm over it.

I can handle a bit of rain but not days of it.

How can you lie next to someone when your skin is sticky, sweaty, too hot?
How can you feel aroused when the humidity zaps energy from you?
How can you dry sheets when it rains day in day out?
How can you get out and feel energised when it rains, and rains, and rains?
And when you get wet, you steam and sweat because of the heat? It's so not attractive.

Does the weather bother you? Do your feelings change due to climatic influences?

Friday, February 5, 2010

Taking Control

Do you like to have control? Why or why not?

I like both. I like to fight my natural control-freakness sometimes. If it's done with someone strong who I trust, it's an absolute buzz to be at their mercy. I love that feeling of ...hmm... is it terror?... of not knowing quite what they will do... but fighting yourself by reminding yourself about that trust thing. It's exhilarating.

And I've always wanted to have the control but I have rarely achieved it completely. And when I did... wow... it was better than I had imagined. To persist with pleasure to push someone to orgasm was more fun that I would have thought. To have a strong-willed man on his knees before me, open to my touch in places never before touched was a powerful pleasure. I don't want to say it was better than me getting pleasure because I most certainly want to be pleasured again :-) but the euphoria of the moment did make me forget about my needs... or maybe they were met.

I understand why control is a powerful aphrodisiac now... AND I WANT MORE!!

Monday, February 1, 2010

No Top 10

My February story didn't make the top 10 this time... which should be disappointing, but it was softened by them asking if they could publish it on their website anyway. So I was pleased. Published is published, huh?

My aim was to get a short story published in the year (from November, not January). So I'm pleased I managed to achieve that. I can't tell you what it does to your confidence to know that someone actually enjoys what you write.

So if you want to read story 1 or story 2, they're on http://www.mainstreamerotica.com/
Story 1 is "Pain Surfer" and it's in the erotic fiction contest section (December)
Story 2 is "Half a Lifetime Apart" and is in the Feb edition, probably in the fiction area.

I am hopeless at titles. So if you are good with titles, feel free to suggest new (decent) ones!!!!

Wednesday, January 27, 2010

When you can't sleep...

What do you do when you can't sleep? Got any good tricks for me? I read until my brain stops working. Sometimes that doesn't work. Then I write, relax muscles in order along my body, drink Sleepy Time tea, soak in a bath. The last couple of nights nothing seems to be working, so I tried something new. I visualised an old memory, drew myself into it, analysed thoughts, feelings, tried to get inside the scene as if I was writing it... and you know what? I fell asleep! Yep, in the middle of making out in a spa... I slept. Hope I didn't drown!!

Thursday, January 21, 2010

When the past catches you up...

Have you ever got a point in your life when the past has caught you up? I'm there now. It's a bit freaky but good for the soul (or so I've heard).

This week, not one, but 4 people from my past have popped back up - larger than life. In the past 6 months, add another 3. That's a lot of people crossing paths with mine again. Is it Fate? Karma? Life?

It stirs up old memories... and what do you do with them? I turn them into stories!! My memories can be strong. At times I can see their face, smell them, taste them (well, those I got that close to!)... but their past self (ten, twenty years ago self).

Why does it happen? Why do you not think about them or that event for years, and then suddenly, it's in the front of your mind, as if it happened yesterday?
Does writing make you live in your memory so much that it haunts you? Or am I just weird?

Saturday, January 16, 2010

The waiting is over

I gave in and emailled to ask who had won December... and it wasn't me :-(

Hotel Honeys was the most popular story. I think it was the salesman who was in a motel and went to get ice and perved on some girls having sex, and then joined them. I may not be right but that's what my memory tells me!

So... are threesomes more popular than male-female sex?

I entered a threesome story in February... so I'll see if it makes it through.

Wednesday, January 6, 2010

Waiting... like sexual tension

Waiting, waiting waiting. That's me at the moment. I open my email with half-dread, half-longing. Is it possible that I could win the December contest? I would love to and I thought the story was strong. The downside is that I don't have many friends or family to vote for me... and it was down the bottom of the list so it may not have got too many votes.

It's like the build up of sexual tension. Usually you get to breaking point and then... orgasm. And that makes it all worthwhile!! But what if the sex is bad? What if you have to fake the orgasm? Was the sexual tension worth the effort then?

Monday, January 4, 2010

Happy New Year

Welcome 2010!

New Year's Resolutions -
  • Web page (which didn't get done on the holidays)
  • more short stories
  • try to submit a short story a month to Mainstream Erotica (especially if I can manage to win December... haven't heard anything yet and I'm so impatient)
  • enter an anthology - maybe the one due end of Feb
  • have wild sex... often

How about you? Any NY resolutions?