I started writing clean books, censoring myself as I wrote. Each swear word got changed to something else. Sex wasn't on the cards, or if it was it was behind closed doors, hinted at rather than described.
It was confining. I noticed how much I swear, or how much my characters do. I noticed how easy it was for me to get carried away with the sex.
I filtered. I edited. I cleaned up my act.
And now, goddamn it, I can't write dirty. I've lost my filth. I'm stymied. I don't know how to get it back!
I'm reading raunchy stuff, hoping that will help. But forgive me if I've become too clean. I'll try to find my filth soon!