Thursday, February 25, 2010

Fantasies

Are fantasies always your own, or do you develop them when other people tell you theirs?

I seem to develop them from others. You know, start thinking about it, turning it into a scene, a story, something juicier. Put in a couple of nameless, faceless people and the fantasy heats up. My girl is almost always kind of naive and shocked by things, so this kind of steams it up a bit too.

But no matter how much I borrow someone else's fantasy, I do come back to mine, just for me.

Friday, February 12, 2010

Humiliation

Does humiliation turn you on? It's something I can't quite get a handle on. I can't understand the pleasure from it - either giving or receiving. It gets my hackles up. I feel like saying "It's a free world, if you don't like (whatever) then f*^k off."

I can't even write it. And usually I can write anything.

Maybe it's a submissive thing... and I'm not a good submissive. I can try. But sometimes I can be very trying!!!

Monday, February 8, 2010

Miserable weather

The weather at my place is lousy... overcast, wet, wet, overcast, sticky, wet... and did I say wet?

I'm over it.

I can handle a bit of rain but not days of it.

How can you lie next to someone when your skin is sticky, sweaty, too hot?
How can you feel aroused when the humidity zaps energy from you?
How can you dry sheets when it rains day in day out?
How can you get out and feel energised when it rains, and rains, and rains?
And when you get wet, you steam and sweat because of the heat? It's so not attractive.

Does the weather bother you? Do your feelings change due to climatic influences?

Friday, February 5, 2010

Taking Control

Do you like to have control? Why or why not?

I like both. I like to fight my natural control-freakness sometimes. If it's done with someone strong who I trust, it's an absolute buzz to be at their mercy. I love that feeling of ...hmm... is it terror?... of not knowing quite what they will do... but fighting yourself by reminding yourself about that trust thing. It's exhilarating.

And I've always wanted to have the control but I have rarely achieved it completely. And when I did... wow... it was better than I had imagined. To persist with pleasure to push someone to orgasm was more fun that I would have thought. To have a strong-willed man on his knees before me, open to my touch in places never before touched was a powerful pleasure. I don't want to say it was better than me getting pleasure because I most certainly want to be pleasured again :-) but the euphoria of the moment did make me forget about my needs... or maybe they were met.

I understand why control is a powerful aphrodisiac now... AND I WANT MORE!!

Monday, February 1, 2010

No Top 10

My February story didn't make the top 10 this time... which should be disappointing, but it was softened by them asking if they could publish it on their website anyway. So I was pleased. Published is published, huh?

My aim was to get a short story published in the year (from November, not January). So I'm pleased I managed to achieve that. I can't tell you what it does to your confidence to know that someone actually enjoys what you write.

So if you want to read story 1 or story 2, they're on http://www.mainstreamerotica.com/
Story 1 is "Pain Surfer" and it's in the erotic fiction contest section (December)
Story 2 is "Half a Lifetime Apart" and is in the Feb edition, probably in the fiction area.

I am hopeless at titles. So if you are good with titles, feel free to suggest new (decent) ones!!!!