Oh boy, blog, I've neglected you for a long time.
Words aren't doing it for me at the moment - writing, speaking or reading them.
I think it's a processing thing in my brain. I noticed when I was learning new things about writing, I couldn't write until they'd settled into my head properly. And I think this is similar.
In the last 2 years, life's jumbled itself all up. Well, actually, that's not something new for me :) But it's not just my life this time, it's the life all around me that's jumbled. And that's taking time to process.
I was thinking today, that maybe there is nothing to process. Maybe I should be looking at/after myself and working on me, and forgetting about the wider world.
I'm one of those people who can see most sides to things, especially when I remain somewhat detached and unemotional. So, I can see why people are upset about everything that happening. I can understand why people take things as a personal attack, rather than a wider societal thing. I see people's view when they say something is their #1 priority - even if I don't share that view. I can understand why people are deperate for a vaccine, and I can understand when they don't want one. And that's been hell in my brain.
My poor brain is like an old computer churning through data trying to make sense and see a way forward in the program.
Sometimes, there isn't a way forward that harmonious or even a satisfying compromise. I think this is where my words are stuck.
And so I'm falling into nature and capturing the joy I feel there in images. It's like every day is a Wildflife Wednesday.
And I apologise for not being here, not writing, not finding words or stories. I'm managing the chaos of life my way, so I can find joy every day and continue to find happiness in living.
I hope you're also finding pieces of happiness and joy even in this chaos.
|Rainbows in waves|