Unexpected

Have you ever had an unexpected lust? I don't know what else to call it. When you are happily being friends and then the world shifts and all you can think of is hot sex? Yesterday they weren't attractive, today something deep and forbidden calls to you? Yesterdays touch on the arm was ignored; todays lights a fire in your soul.

It's disconcerting. It's powerful. Something I want to explore in my latest short story... or shall it be bigger? The power of lust makes me want it to be a huge novel... but lust doesn't always sustain through 300 pages! A shame... lust is so much aching fun.

Still in the Hunt

Can you believe it... my online meeting story is still in the hunt for an anthology. I'm smiling like a goof! I still have one I have not heard about. So out of 3 - one rejection and two pending. That's not bad. Well, it could be, but so far it isn't!!

And life has not been so kind lately - not much time to write at all. No time for web page designing either. *sigh* Maybe things will improve!

One story bites the dust

One of the two stories I submitted to an anthology has been rejected *sigh*

I don't want to be pessimistic but... I have such hopes for the other story and I'm concerned it will follow the same fate. If it does, will I have enough oomph to pick myself up again? I hope so.

I'm thinking I should re-write my failed story and submit it as a novella or a quickie to an e-publisher. It seems to fit that kind of mould. Or that could just be my deluded self telling me it does!

It feels like such a long journey, yet others have taken many years longer. I hope mine is not going to be "many" years more!!! :-)

What do we want in a man?

I had an experience lately which showed me differences in two men I can hardly decide between. One man believed and supported me 100%, the other questioned me, made me face myself and see who I was.

What do you want in a man?

I'm not sure... still :-) You'd think their polar opposite reactions would make me lean one way or the other, wouldn't you? Sometimes I need to check myself and make sure I'm not telling myself porkies (porky pigs = fibs = lies). Other times I want the loyalty of someone who just believes me and believes in me.

Does that make me fickle?